I’m reaching out to you today because I wanted to let you all know that I am fundraising for a charity to run the NYC Marathon this year.
I wanted to get back on raising the money and fulfilling a goal, a commitment that I set for myself this year. I promised Aktiv Against Cancer that I will start a fundraiser to run for their cause this year and I am determined to accomplish that goal and fulfill that promise.
I know that we are all going through some tough times this year. This post is in no way taking away magnitude of all the horrifying events this past weeks and months. This post is just my attempt to keep on going. My attempt to see the light in the tunnel because after all this, we must continue on. We must rise up and keep going!
So I hope that you continue to live a normal life as much as possible amidst this pandemic. I hope you follow the protocols that are being in place to flatten the curve. I hope you work hard for yourself and others to stay healthy and active. I hope that you understand the severity of what is happening around the world. I hope and pray that we all get through this sooner than later.
I hope that you find comfort and solace in knowing that we are all in this together. We are all experiencing fear, anxiety and uncertainties. But none the less we will persevere!
I decided that I will try to keep on fundraising for a great cause, Aktiv Against Cancer. Their cause is to make sure that exercise is part of the treatment for Cancer. They are the first foundation to do research in establishing the importance of exercise in fighting against Cancer. Yes, we are battling a virus in the moment but many of us have been fighting against cancer for a while, may it be for yourself, your family and for your friends. Cancer has been prevalent in my family these past years. I have aunties and uncles who went through this (are still going through this). They keep on fighting.
They inspire me. I wanted to show them my support by doing something I love while supporting a cause that relates to the battle they’ve been fighting so hard for.
So please support this cause not just for me but for my family, my friends and for the future that lies ahead of us.
TWO DAYS! I gave that anxiety two days of my life! Two anxious filled days about a situation/incident that hasn’t even occurred yet. I feel that I lost those two days trying to figure out how to deal with the problem that could come up. I feel that I lost those two days.
There was a change in assignments at my day job and it created a hysterical person in me. I was anxious. I was told it was the worst thing that could happen. I was told this was one of the reason why someone quit the job. I was told it was difficult. I was told it was repetitive and too stressful. That was what was being assigned to me!
I created world wind scenarios in my head. I was recalling some past events in my life when I was overly worked and overlooked by my co-workers. I was anxious. “I DON’T WANT HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF”, I thought to myself, while planning out my escape plan! Two days, I gave that two days of stress – nothing is happening yet!
Karl, my boyfriend, desperately looking for a solution for me. I was defensive, angry and alone. I didn’t what a solution, THERE IS NO SOLUTION! Oh the agony of it all – nothing is happening yet, I was anxious.
He said, “I feel like I lose you every time you’re anxious.” He wasn’t trying to fix my problem, he wanted me back and I wanted the same. I lost myself for those two days for something that’s not even happening. I stepped back a little bit to realize that I was losing myself. I wanted to enjoy my days. I wanted to not worry but worry won me over those two days.
We were listening to an audiobook, Antidote: Happiness for People Who Can’t Stand Positive Thinking by Oliver Burkeman. In the book, he mentions Eckhart Tolle, a spiritual teacher, who had a question “Do you have a problem right now?”. That question hit me, thankfully it did! I’m worrying about something in the future that may or may not even happen. I forgot to live in the moment; I made the future more important than what’s happening now.
After learning Karl’s fears and thoughts about my troubles I realized that I wasn’t focusing on the now. We were after all on a trip of a lifetime and I was there pondering on work issues that may or may not even happen. The sun was setting, the clouds were aligning, ducks were swimming on the lake and the water was red from the reflection of the sunset. I couldn’t enjoy them 100 percent. Thankfully, I was able to get back in the moment to realign myself with the world around me.
I also had to remind myself that even if all my worries do come, it wouldn’t be the worst thing that could happen to me. That even if they come, I will be able to handle them. I have a choice to accept and not accept what I would like to keep in my life, no matter what. I have a choice to dwell on things or to figure out solutions for when they come – but not now!
Do I have a problem right now, this very moment? I answered “NO” & my worries and anxiety left. I freed myself from that, giving me an opportunity to enjoy my time with Karl wholeheartedly; worry and stress free!
So if there is something bothering you, ask yourself, “Do I have a problem right now?”
My friends, it’s time! It’s time for us to stop comparing, to stop wanting something to be something else! It’s time for us to be happy with who we are now.
I was listening to Joel Osteen’s podcast, Be Comfortable With Who You Are , he talked about running your own race.. being able to celebrate others without feeling like you have to catch up… he told a story about how he focused so much on passing someone while on a run he didn’t realized he was 6 blocks away from his house! That’s what happens when you focus on other people’s race. You make it longer for you to reach your destination.
The podcast inspired me to write about being happy with who we are!
• Do you not feel happy with who you are?
• Do you find yourself always wanting to change?
• Do you find yourself always comparing yourself and your journey from others?
Well, if your answer is yes to any of the questions above, you need to stop it! Stop it already!
God created us to be exactly who we are.
Everyone was created to fulfill a purpose that is different for everyone! No one is ever more special than you to God. We are all equal in his eyes. He doesn’t care if you make the most money or if you have all the degrees in the world! He only cares about how and what you do with your life’s purpose.
The more you love yourself the more you open yourself up to God’s purpose for you!
Remind yourself everyday to Love every single bit of you, from your body to your mind and to your soul & spirit! It’s you, it’s always been you!
You don’t have to be the skinniest or the fastest, the smartest or the prettiest! What matters is what’s in your heart and that you be the best you you can ever be.
A heart filled with love will be much more beneficial for you than a heart filled with discontent.
Everyday, every minute repeat the mantra: I am ok with who I am!
Every time doubt cripples in: I am ok with who I am!
Every time you feel behind: I am ok with who I am!
Every time someone mocks you, disrespects you: I am ok with who I am!
Keep that in mind: I am ok with who I am!
What’s for you will be for you! You just have to love YOU and let the rest flow naturally!
Joel Osteen, Podcast “Be Comfortable With Who You Are”
I felt rejuvenated from today’s run and felt the urged to post about it.
I’ve been having so much struggle with my training for the last couple of weeks but today’s run made me feel a bit victorious, to say the least. I do encourage you all to remember your fellow runners during this time of training. The HEAT is extremely vicious this year and training has been more and more challenging. Check on your running friends and make sure they are hydrating and are high in spirits!
I learned a lot this week. I was disheartened to tell you the truth. I wanted to quit or told myself that this is the last time I’m ever going to put myself through Marathon training. I wanted to cry. I wanted to give up. I wanted to tell the world “I can’t do this anymore.” Thankfully, the next day wasn’t so bad and then this one today was pretty nice too. I can be a bit dramatic about things from time to time.
So for those who are low in spirit; don’t give up just yet! Take some rest days, have adequate sleep and start over. The days will get brighter!
I’ve been so focused on my runs that I haven’t had a chance to produce a blog about self love and relationships. So this is my first dive on this again.
I wanted to tackle special relationships and holy relationships: concepts derived from the book, A Course in Miracles.
Many people struggle with creating a healthy and loving relationship for themselves, may it be with a significant other, friends, family and even things. I can attest to this because I struggle even up to today with keeping healthy relationships. I’ve read so many books about love and relationships and I feel that they talk about the same exact concepts. But here I break it down into two and discern both concept as best as I could.
I would like to first warn you that I do not have any expertise in relationships. I have not taken any courses or received any certifications or diploma that may deem me as an expert. I am simply sharing the things I learn in hopes that it enlightens someone elses life the way that it did mine.
So here it goes……………………
According to A Course in Miracles (ACIM), there are two types of relationships: the special relationship and the holy relationship. Yes, they both sound completely harmless but I do favor one more than the other. I will let you take a guess…
In this blog, I’m going to talk about both separately. These are completely my own understanding of the two concepts. I’ve been working a lot on creating a healthy lifestyle for myself where I am completely taking care of myself deeply and lovingly. When I read about special relationships in The Universe Has Your Back by Gabby Bernstein, a light bulb turned on for me. I thought: “This is the kind of relationships I’ve been having all these times!” and I wanted to change that. I wanted something better for myself and the people I love. I wanted to keep and maintain a healthy relationship with myself and others. I feel that I’ve created a safe place for myself through reading and learning about special relationships and I am ready to share them.
A special relationship is basically finding your happiness through something outside yourself! It doesn’t necessarily have to be a romantic relationship. It can be anything: friendship, money, things, etc. Special relationships make you feel complete. Special relationships make you romanticize things or a person/people to the point where it feels as though you’re incomplete without them. This is a sign that you are not finding happiness within yourself.
I struggled a lot with special relationships. I was in denial, often times, playing a role of someone who seems strong and independent, someone who didn’t need anyone. I realized that wanting to be that person is different from actually being that person. I’ve managed to play that role for a while until I was forced to face reality. I wasn’t getting any younger and I wasn’t getting any happier either! I depended on people to make me happy. I looked for answers and validation from the people around me. I found comfort with purchasing things I didn’t need. I constantly look for something/someone to fill the holes in my life but ultimately feeling empty once that certain thing/person is gone, being upset when they don’t turn out as planned and jumping from one relationship to the next. That was me but not anymore.
It took a lot of drama, a lot of heartache, a lot of losing friends and fighting with family for me to realize that I wasn’t close to the person I wanted to be, the person I truly am. I was constantly looking for happiness from outside myself. Having this revelation made me ache for something more, more meaningful and more fulfilling. I didn’t want to depend on anything or anyone to make me happy. I wanted to step out of my comfort zone and find out what it truly meant to be truly happy and that is where I found and learned about the HOLY relationship.
Holy Relationship is the one I favor more (a term derived from ACIM). It isn’t holy in religious terms. It’s holy because it is pure love. You are a whole as yourself and you find happiness within yourself despite of whatever you have and don’t have. You don’t depend on others, people or things, to keep yourself happy. You rely on your inner self to be and stay happy.
Being in a Holy Relationship is being in a loving relationship with yourself that ultimately leads to healthier relationships with others. Establishing a holy relationship leads to relationships that feels free, relationships that only requires you to be yourself and allowing others to be themselves too.
As mentioned before, I am not a relationship expert. I still find myself clinging on to things and people. Sometimes it takes me weeks to realize that the reason why someone/something was bothering me so much was because I was holding on too tightly to the idea of happiness something or someone brings into my life. I forget that happiness is within and not something outside myself. I wasn’t having a holy relationship I was having a special relationship and I constantly remind myself of what my relationship goals are and that is to have a Holy Relationship. (Wholly Relationship)
I feel that knowing the differences between Holy and Special relationships help in establishing healthy relationships for yourself and others. Being aware of the differences can help create a path where you could choose which way your relationships could ultimately go. There is no time limit in choosing either, any time you can decide what kind of relationship you want to have. I find that joy is a choice that we make. It’s a decision to free ourselves from looking for love outside ourselves. It’s finding peace from within. I think that is the secret for having and keeping relationships.
Relationships are meant to highlight you as the person that you are, one that is already complete by yourself. It is not meant to fill the emptiness that you feel inside. The emptiness you feel could only be filled by the love you’ll have for yourself.
“You are not incomplete, and no one can complete you. You are eternally, unassailable, undeniably whole.” – Alan Cohen
So, I hope that I shed some light for you. I hope that this leads you to think and evaluate the kind of relationships you want to have in your life.
What kind of relationship would you like for yourself? Did this give you some thoughts about the relationships that you have now? Could there be a person or thing that feels like a special relationship for you? Will you take steps to create more holy relationships in your life?
My only wish is that we could all feel an inch of peace within ourselves even if it takes long. Even if the road can sometimes be so hard and sometimes it’ll feel like you’re alone. In the end, finding yourself and loving yourself is ultimately the best relationship goal you can ever ask for!
Only 8 weeks left to go after this week’s training. HOLY MOLLY! I can’t believe I did most of the training! How amazing is that! 🙂 I am super excited! I am loving my runs more. There are more loving runs than there are dreadful runs. (LOL)
Week 10 could be my most favorite week of training thus far!
I started the week with 7 Recover Miles (after my 12 mile run the previous day). My 7 miles to start the week was accompanied by my friend Jowell who encouraged me to keep going even when I was already making excuses at Mile 2.5 to cut our run short. (hehe) Thanks to him I reached out to my inner self to finish the goal I set out for us that morning! We got the 7 Miles done! Yipppeee!
I wasn’t able to do the Speedwork the following day. Instead I opt to take a REST DAY due to fatigued and pure exhaustion from the weekend’s runs. I listened to my body and my body told me to rest and be merry! and so I DID! I did so for two days! This is actually the first week that I took 2 days OFF of Running! Pardon me! I need some REST! I’m not used to running so so much. Even on my 2 Miles a day challenge that lasted for 50 days, running only 2 miles was sort of tiring too. BUT with this training, I’m running 5-8 miles 4-5 days a week and running the long miles on the weekends. It’s a lot to get used to but I’m super proud of my body for allowing me to go this far! 🙂
On the 4th day, I did 3.40 Miles with the Running Group at work. We got rained at! It was sunny, then cloudy and then rain started pouring on my last mile! It was an amazing feeling to be able to run that day in the rain.
On the 5th day, I decided to do my 8 Miles. Totally not planned but never the less I had to since I wasn’t sure I will be able to complete 8 miles on Friday, the next day, since I have a flight to catch in Orlando Airport which was a 2 HR drive for me! This run wasn’t the easiest one for me due to all the excuses that came up in my head! But even still I did it! and I am happy that I completed the 8 miles!
On the 6th day, I did 5 Miles in the AM before work. The hard part about this run was waking up early! I haven’t been able to do so in a while so getting up early for this one was a bit challenging but I did and it made my day go by much smoother since I did not have to worry about this run while I was driving to the airport!
On the last day, I managed to do 10 miles while on a weekend vacation visiting my boyfriend, Karl. I am so proud of myself for doing this and I am so grateful to Karl for giving me the opportunity to finish this goal even while visiting him. He carried my drinks and made sure I stayed safe while on the road while riding his bike. I ran with ease and I ran with confidence beside him. I appreciate that so much. I was surprised with myself and I think Karl was too because I told him I stop a lot on long runs lol BUT I DIDN’T! I managed to keep at 12:07 min/mile pace! On long runs I’m usually at 13-14 min/mile pace. I am getting better and I’m getting stronger in each and every mile.
I have so many people to thank for that! But for this week, I am thankful for Jowell and Karl for running and biking with me and motivating me to keep going! I am thankful for the running group at work for challenging me and keeping me company!
Whoa, I have been a bit of MIA on this for the past couple of weeks. I lost my groove a bit after the last long mile I had to do for Week 9 of my training and I haven’t been able to catch up with my thoughts since then.
Week 9 is the halfway point of training. How amazing is that? Time is actually flying pretty damn quick! I am enjoying the runs. I’m looking at my records and I’ve been able to run most of the scheduled training! I’m pretty proud of myself for that. Below is a summary of week 9 of what I was expected to do and below that will be what I actually was able to do!
Day 1: 5 Easy Miles
Day 2: Speed Work
Day 3: Free Day
Day 4: 8 Miles
Day 5: 6 Easy Miles
Day 6: 5 Easy Miles
Day 7: Long Run _ 15 Miles
I’m so happy that I’m able to enjoy some treadmill runs because with the Florida heat it’s really hard to get all the runs in, especially when you “accidentally” wake up late! On day 1 of week 9, I decided to run on the treadmill to complete the first 5 easy miles. I did have a hard time on this one because I wasn’t as focused but nonetheless the miles were still completed and I am still very proud of myself
For the second day, I decided to join my work’s running group to tackle my speed work. These people are so motivated and inspired to run M W F on their lunch breaks! I’ve been meaning to go and join them but I was always so hesitant about it. This day, I wasn’t hesitant at all. I put my ego aside and went for the run! I ended up doing 4 miles with the group and I managed to keep up as much as I can but even if I got left behind I still felt pretty accomplished: One, for facing my fears of running with them and, two, for completing my run while getting to know new people who could inspire me to keep going!
Third Day was Rest Day! Woohoo!
On the fourth day, I decided to do 8 miles after work. It was really nice, it was somewhat cloudy so it wasn’t as hot as usual. There were so many people around Memorial park, making the run more interesting. I think there were doing the Harry Potter game probably. I then posted on my IG about how I used to just go home after work and just dwindle on my FB and IG account until I have to go to sleep and now I’m doing 8 miles instead. It’s just really nice to look back on how far I’ve come!
The next day, I only did 5 miles. I was still pretty tired from the previous day so I kind of took this day very lightly. It was also very hot and humid that day that made it less possible to be energized for the run. I think I ended up walking more (any run that you do or don’t do counts!).
On Friday, which is the 6th day of Week 9, I decided to run with the running group again at work. I only did 3 miles instead of the schedule 5 but I think it was just the perfect amount of run for the day. Sometimes you have to adjust your schedule and tweak some things. There are no “set in stone” when it comes to your training schedule! I can tweak my schedule so you can too! I also think that running around 11am when the sun is just about to give us all it got is another training within itself!
I was super unprepared for Saturday Morning’s Long Run. I have been thinking about it all week but I just didn’t feel ready. I’ve just been focused so much on the daily runs that it’s hard to prepare for the Long Run! I used to be more prepared mentally but oh well. I did wake up pretty early and started my run around 6:30 AM. I probably should have started earlier because I had a hard time by mile 12 due to the heat! Nonetheless, I still did it! Even though I walked the last 2.5 miles back home, I’m still pretty proud! I started off sluggish and then started feeling a bit more energized by mile 2 or 3 and felt that way up to Mile 9 or so! It wasn’t until shade was no longer available for me to shelter myself. I thanked every tree I passed that day for the shade they provided!
I’m preparing myself for the next Long Run, for now, I need to focus on the accomplishment I was able to achieve on week 9. I feel that my week 9 was the most productive week I’ve had since week 5 or so.
I am thankful for my body for allowing me to do all of these runs! I can’t wait to share the rest of my training with you guys! I hope you are enjoying these just as much as I am enjoying writing and sharing them!
Woo… getting closer to the end of this training! I’m almost half-way done. Week 8 came by so fast. After vacationing over the weekend of week 7, I promised I would do better on week 8. I’m still not super sure I could do all the runs that this marathon method is requiring me to but I’m gonna keep at it. I’m running 12 mins/mile at the moment (steady pace) and able to run up to 8 miles non-stop with that pace. I’m happy with it. I mean I used to struggle running a mile non-stop and here I am now running 8! My marathon goal is really doing better than my Chicago Marathon Time which was 5:45:54. So anything less than that would make me happy! (Well side note: I Hope I can take out at least 15 mins off that time! “NO PRESSURE” is what I tell myself)
So here is a summary of how Week 8 was for me.
Day 1: Sunday, the first day back from vacation. As you know, I missed my first scheduled 10 miles so this one was very important to me. I did the scheduled 6 Miles with 12 min/mile pace. I also used the Nike App for their 2 hour Guided Run with Coach Bennett. I didn’t finish the guided run but it was really nice. He broke down the runs into four 30 min runs. It made the run less stressful/less pressured.
Day 2: Speed Work Monday. I decided to do the 30 mins speedwork out from the Nike App guided runs with Coach Bennett too. It was easy for me and it was relaxed. Plus, I don’t know what to do with speedwork outs YET (lol) but I saw a post on FB showing how my Garmin has a specific function for speed intervals! Hurray to fb group pages and also too bad, for me not knowing this ahead of time but oh well the Nike Guided runs were easy, simple and stress free! I enjoyed that one very much!
Day 3: Fave Day for Rest Day! I don’t remember what I did this day. (Yikes! Need to eat more brain boosting foods)
Day 4: This was Tempo Run Day BUT I decided to do YOD instead. I have to explain this to people all the time because when I say that this is a yoga workout, they think it’s supposed to be an easy work out! YOD is yoga plus 12 minute HIIT workout! Each YOD workout is different every day. On this particular day we did:
10-12 minutes of Power Yoga
Next all together we did – 10 2ct air squats, 10 line hops & 10 back lunges
To enter HIIT mode we did – 30 air squats & 30 skate lunges
During the HIIT workout we did – 20 air squats, 20 back lunges, 20 frog hops and 10 cobras (upto 4x) I was only able to do 3 rounds in 12 minutes.
To exit HIIT we had to do – 30 air squats and 30 skate lunges (again)
& another Power Yoga then
most favorite Savasana… (relax/meditating mode)
I am sore until today and it is Saturday. I’m not even sore from all the running I’ve been doing but I was sore from that. I decided that I might add YOD/Power Yoga to my training at least once a week. It’s an hour worth of work out and it’s a good alternative for my 5 Miles runs. (I would say so myself!)
Day 5: Five for Five. Day 5 was another 5 mile (easy) run. I did this one in the morning. I did this one with just my Andrea Bocelli station (in Pandora) and it was a pretty sweet and easy run. It felt good to run this one because I was already sore (Yeah It’s kind of a weird thought). It felt like my legs were more energized but I was so wobbly at work from all the leg workout!
Day 6: Six for Six! This day I had to run 6 miles before the big 10! I decided to try running on the treadmill. After all, I’m only running for an hour and 15 mins. I thought I would be so bored and would want to end it earlier or something but I ended up completing 6 miles on the treadmill. I watched Friends and when my battery was about to die, I listened to some podcasts. I did feel as though I would lose my balance in some parts of that run which was a surprise to me but I probably just need some getting used to. I also kept my pace at 12 mins per mile on this one and if I really want to keep at my pace I think treadmill runs is the way to go! I tend to run unevenly when I’m out and about trying to keep my pace at bay. It’s either I’m going too fast or too slow but on the treadmill it was set at 12 miles/min the whole time.
Day 7: The scary 10! I woke up so late! I didn’t start my run until 10am! I was lucky that today was a gloomy/cloudy day in Jax! I started the run in 77 degree weather and I cried/teared a little bit when the sun slowly showed up! I prayed for more clouds and a little bit of rain, only the cloud request were answered, still very grateful for that! My first 5 miles was strong but the last 3 miles of this run/route was hard for me. I ended up running and walking 7-9 miles and ended up walking 9-10 miles!
I’m happy that this week was more productive than the last. I plan to be even more productive in week 9 that starts tomorrow with a 5 mile run and ending with the first 15 mile run next Saturday! (SCARED, a lottle) I will keep a positive mind as Coach Bennett said on his IG story today “Any run that you do and don’t do, counts!…………….. Be Kinder to yourself!” (That’s part of the reason I love doing his guided runs because he is kind and very motivational!)
Anyways, it was a fun productive week for me! I hope you’re all running happy!
Thank you for reading through this! I appreciate you with all my heart!
The marathon is creeping in on me. I feel like September 29 is just around the corner! It is less than 3 months away! I was going through/skimming through my calendar to check out my schedule and I freaked out a little bit! It’s coming and it’s coming fast! When I’m sitting at my desk at work, I wish for the time to go by fast and then I remember how close my Berlin Trip/Marathon is, that I end up telling the Universe: “Ok, it can go a bit slower!”
My marathon training has been going through many of it’s downs lately at least for the past 2 weeks. Having a tough time on week 6 had me pumped for week 7! It really does fly by I can’t believe I just got done with week 7, just like that! I started week 7 strong but ended it on the weaker end of the stick. I was out of town on a girl’s trip where we all ended up going out and staying up late!
So here’s a little summary of my 7th week:
Day 1: After a night of hanging out with friends, its was really hard to wake up early for Day 1 of Week 7. I ended up waking up at 7am, giving me ample amount of time to start a morning run! But no, I sat and ate a big breakfast and had to wait a couple of hours to digest. I started my run at 10am (in Florida that means HOT HOT HOT). I went to the park for my run. It wasn’t so bad. The 4 miles went smoothly. It wasn’t as humid and hot as I thought it would be and running at the park is nice because there’s plenty of people trying to get their exercise/run done too so I didn’t feel so alone.
Day 2: Monday came along and I decided to do my run in the evening instead of my normal AM runs before work. My friend who was visiting decided to join me. We ended up going to another one of our friend’s and he ran along with us too with his son. We did 3 miles! I was reminded of how much fun it is to run with a group!
Day 3: Rest Day! I ended up going out to eat with my friends at a restaurant called Boiling Crawfish! It was super yummy!
Day 4: It was the last day before vacation. Everyone at work was expecting an early release but it did not happen. My plan of running my 4 miles right before leaving for the trip didn’t quite pan out. I got off work on my regular scheduled time and got ready and left as soon as I got home. So no running was done on this day at all.
Day 5: We drove for about 5 hours to reach our vacay spot and probably didn’t get set and ready for bed until around 3AM. Good thing my friend was dedicated to seeing the sunrise (since we were staying so close to the beach) and woke us all up at 6AM. I got up and got ready for my run. It was tough to run on the sand at first but as soon as I got on my rhythm I would find myself stuck and unable to move forward due to water blocking some spots at the beach! I didn’t want my shoes to get wet! An hour or so later and my 4 miles was done, tired and restless, but I still did it!
Day 6: Still super tired and restless! It was storming outside and my will power to do my 6 mile run was just not there. I ended up calling it a day and taking on missed miles for the day.
Same goes for Day 7, still restless. My boyfriend ended up meeting us the night before and we all decided to go out and see the Boardwalk one last time. We woke up pretty late and had to drive back home. We didn’t get home until around 6PM or so. Still plenty of time to do a run but I decided to take another missed miles. It would have been my first double digit number but I just couldn’t do it.
I know there are so many excuses and plenty of shoulds. A lot of these things are lesson learned for future trainings. You really do need to plan ahead when it comes to training/vacationing especially on the limited time that you have. It’s also smart to plan how restless you’ll be in trips, especially from travelling from one place to another. It is important to rest and get a decent amount of sleep.
I had a great time with my friends and I wouldn’t change anything about our trip! I’m not going to dwell so much on those miss miles. I’m moving on from that and focusing more on the upcoming ones. I’m going to focus on the upcoming weeks and do my best to accomplish my scheduled runs on my training plan!
So see you again next time! Thank you for reading!
Ahhhhhhhh!!! Week 6 got me beat! This week has been super tough for my training/running.
Sunday Morning, the first day of my week 6, I set out to run 4 miles. I started a little bit later than usual, I had a hard time waking up. Maybe my body was tired and for some reason I was not mentally prepared. (Week 5 was too good, lol) So I went out there in the middle of the blazing sun and decided to go for my 4 miles. The first 2 miles went so well. I was running under the shades and it felt good! As soon as I turn around to finish my last 2 miles, I felt light headed (and hungry). I was hungry!! I couldn’t get myself to run the last 2 miles. Instead, I did the run/walk method with more walks (lol). I still did it!
The next day was speedwork, I’ve never done such a thing! I hope I knew what I was doing. I only had an hour before I had to get ready for work to finish this task. With 400 meters in 5k pace (10 minutes for me) 12x and 400 meter jog 12x! Of course the first couple of 400 meters went fine! “I can do this”, my mind thought and I did but I didn’t have enough time so I started cutting off 400 meter jogs into 200 meters just to compensate for the time. I ended up doing the 400 meters in 5K pace 9x. I had to stop at the 9th because I had to get ready for work. I still did it!
Oh how I love rest day, Tuesday was a rest day!
Wednesday came along and it was the tempo run! I had a good amount of sleep I believe but I still felt so restless. I ended up doing 4 miles instead of 5! Oh this week did not go as planned but I still did it!
On Thursday, it was an easy 4 mile run. This one went okay, I felt a little bit more rested but still not the same energy that I had for week 5! I took it easy. I figured this week is just not my super star week but I’m going to look back and say at least “I still did it!”
Friday was the first 8 mile run! I couldn’t do it before work so I had to wait in the afternoon. I had such a busy day at work this day and when I got home I did not think I had the right mindset to run and finish 8 miles! I was mentally tired from all the anxiety I went through at work. I took a deep breath, ate some apples, did a 10 minute meditation and went out and did the work! I finished my first 8 miles in 12:50 min pace per mile! Not bad! I ran most of it! Usually after 4 or 5 miles I start to do my run/walk method which I could still manage to do a good time but this time I didn’t feel like stopping. I just had to stop and wait for the crossing signals to turn GO! I believe this 8 mile run is my most successful run for the week! I did it and I’m thankful that I did!
It’s Saturday morning and I am up later than usual at 7 a.m. I ate breakfast, stretched and foam rolled and got myself ready to run. I decided to run in the park to have access to more shade. I had to run the loop at the park 5x to complete the 8 miles scheduled. The first mile was hard at first, I kept telling myself, “I am tired, I am tired.” I had to change my mindset. I knew that I wasn’t gonna last very long if I kept repeating that in my head. I was able to run the first 2 miles with fine colors but the rest was a struggle. I couldn’t run the 3rd loop (4th & 5th mile). I walked all of my 5th mile and decided that I couldn’t give anymore. I was hungry and tired but I still did it!
I don’t really know what happened for me this week. I started doubting a lot of things. Did I pick the right training method? Am I losing my motivation? Can I do it? I started thinking about things I can do to give myself, my body more time to rest, “maybe I’ll do yoga on this day instead of running?”; “maybe I’ll take this day as a rest day?”; “maybe maybe maybe!” I don’t know yet for certain what I’ll be doing but I’ll continue to look at the calendar and continue to do what I can. I still did my best!I still did it! I got the job done. Sometimes it was short, sometimes it was low but I was out there!
These kind of days are meant to happen, right? Or is this the kind of days coaches are made for? I wish I can afford to hire a coach! I wish I could find a good running buddy that could run with me on these kind of days! But I am also grateful to myself and my body for pushing thru some tough times even when no one is out there cheering her on! Clap clap clap to myself! Lol
I’m so funny! But that’s it for my WEEK 6 of the #HansonMarathonMethod! I hope all of you doing this method are having a wonderful time. Know that if we push through this training schedule we will be one of the toughest kiddos out there!
“Every Step is a Step!” – Alexi Pappas <3
I also got new shoes this week! maybe that’s why my legs felt heavy and tired: working hard breaking it in! (LOL) Please see below my lovely Brooks Adrenaline #19! #RunHappy!