Marathon Training – Week 10 – #RoadtoBerlinMarathon2019

Week 10:

Only 8 weeks left to go after this week’s training. HOLY MOLLY! I can’t believe I did most of the training! How amazing is that! 🙂 I am super excited! I am loving my runs more. There are more loving runs than there are dreadful runs. (LOL)

Week 10 could be my most favorite week of training thus far!

I started the week with 7 Recover Miles (after my 12 mile run the previous day). My 7 miles to start the week was accompanied by my friend Jowell who encouraged me to keep going even when I was already making excuses at Mile 2.5 to cut our run short. (hehe) Thanks to him I reached out to my inner self to finish the goal I set out for us that morning! We got the 7 Miles done! Yipppeee!

I wasn’t able to do the Speedwork the following day. Instead I opt to take a REST DAY due to fatigued and pure exhaustion from the weekend’s runs. I listened to my body and my body told me to rest and be merry! and so I DID! I did so for two days! This is actually the first week that I took 2 days OFF of Running! Pardon me! I need some REST! I’m not used to running so so much. Even on my 2 Miles a day challenge that lasted for 50 days, running only 2 miles was sort of tiring too. BUT with this training, I’m running 5-8 miles 4-5 days a week and running the long miles on the weekends. It’s a lot to get used to but I’m super proud of my body for allowing me to go this far! 🙂

On the 4th day, I did 3.40 Miles with the Running Group at work. We got rained at! It was sunny, then cloudy and then rain started pouring on my last mile! It was an amazing feeling to be able to run that day in the rain.

On the 5th day, I decided to do my 8 Miles. Totally not planned but never the less I had to since I wasn’t sure I will be able to complete 8 miles on Friday, the next day, since I have a flight to catch in Orlando Airport which was a 2 HR drive for me! This run wasn’t the easiest one for me due to all the excuses that came up in my head! But even still I did it! and I am happy that I completed the 8 miles!

On the 6th day, I did 5 Miles in the AM before work. The hard part about this run was waking up early! I haven’t been able to do so in a while so getting up early for this one was a bit challenging but I did and it made my day go by much smoother since I did not have to worry about this run while I was driving to the airport!

On the last day, I managed to do 10 miles while on a weekend vacation visiting my boyfriend, Karl. I am so proud of myself for doing this and I am so grateful to Karl for giving me the opportunity to finish this goal even while visiting him. He carried my drinks and made sure I stayed safe while on the road while riding his bike. I ran with ease and I ran with confidence beside him. I appreciate that so much. I was surprised with myself and I think Karl was too because I told him I stop a lot on long runs lol BUT I DIDN’T! I managed to keep at 12:07 min/mile pace! On long runs I’m usually at 13-14 min/mile pace. I am getting better and I’m getting stronger in each and every mile.

I have so many people to thank for that! But for this week, I am thankful for Jowell and Karl for running and biking with me and motivating me to keep going! I am thankful for the running group at work for challenging me and keeping me company!

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Marathon Training – Week 5 #roadtoberlinmarathon

Hello All!

Week 5 just ended for me and I feel super accomplished! With 3 very successful weeks, I am on a roll!

Day 1: Rest Day! Slept until my body told me to wake up. I dropped my mom off to work, vacuumed my car, went to starbucks, went grocery shopping, meal prepped, work prepped and video chatted with my S.O. What a productive rest day it was!

Day 2: I prepared my mind for this morning run, 5 miles, to be exact. I got to the park and “tried” to keep a steady pace. It’s really hard to be at one pace but I am getting there. I’m still running 11 – 12 mins per mile.

Day 3: Rest Day! Of course spent the whole day at work

Day 4: 4 Miles: I don’t quite recall how this actually went but I bet it was a good one! Lol

Day 5: Couldn’t sleep the day before. I contemplated doing the 2nd 5 mile easy run of the week in the afternoon. My alarm went off at 4:45 AM (yikes, that’s not happening) and then again at 5:00 AM, contemplated so hard around this time but decided that I am pretty wide awake anyways, I’ll just drink some coffee and have a snack! I haven’t been drinking coffee before my 6am runs so this was the first! I thought, “instead of 5, I’ll just do 4 today, sleep better tonight and run my 5 miles tomorrow.” (Yes, you can do that! You can switch off the days as long as you do the runs!) So I did my regular 4 mile route but as I was running I think the coffee was starting to kick in and ended up running the 5 miles that was scheduled!! Coffee saved the day! I really like to emphasized on this day because I really thought I couldn’t do it. I managed to run the last mile the fastest that day. It was a good feeling. I felt really accomplished and proud of myself.

Day 6: I couldn’t sleep right away again, although, I did sleep a little bit earlier than the previous day. I got to the park a little bit later than usual. I didn’t drink any coffee because I did not feel as tired waking up. I ran the 4 miles and got done with a couple of minutes before needing to get ready for work! What an amazing accomplishment it was! I did some stretches and some foam rolling.

Day 7: Last Day of Week 5, 6 Miles in the book! I planned to run later than usual (it’s the weekend after all) but my body woke up at 5:30 AM and I was able to start my run at 6am! I was surprised to not see many runners (It’s not a holiday weekend, yet!) I thought this run was gonna be slower than usual because it is much longer than what I’ve been running but I kept a steady pace!

Week 5 was a success! Week 6 on the schedule looks a little scary! Wish me luck!

 

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On to the Next Thing… Berlin Marathon 2019

I’m about to start my Marathon Training for the 2019 Berlin Marathon! 

What are my thoughts? 

  • I’m incredibly nervous that I’m going to slack off and just not do any of the training. (I did slack off a little bit for my Chicago Marathon training last year. Instead of running a lot, I did yoga a lot! LOL Well, it gave me a profound experience with yoga and I enjoyed every bit of it anyways. But this year, I’m going to run more and do yoga and other cross-training I could think of.) 
  • I’m incredibly nervous about injuring myself. (My right leg hasn’t been itself since that one Pole fitness class and I’ve been trying to recover since. It’s getting better though.) 
  • I’m incredibly nervous about Florida weather! It’s so HOT outside already! (I just need to start running in the morning which means sleeping earlier and waking up earlier. I can do that. I just need to be more consistent.) 
  • Will I be more prepared this time around? (I do still have plenty of time. I really need to stop putting so much pressure on myself coz it makes me not want to do anything at all. Writing helps, as I am going thru the lists of my thoughts, it helps to narrow them down and have a more organized focus on things that I am worrying about. lol) 
  • Should I try to PR? (I should at least try, right?. I am in better shape now than when I started training for Chicago Marathon 2018. At least, I also know what I am getting myself into so I can be more prepared and ready.)
  • I want to enjoy this race and experience even more than I enjoyed Chicago. (I’ll prepare more travel planning. I really didn’t do any of that for Chicago. So we didn’t get to see the city for the beauty it was. I can’t wait. I’m going to see so many beautiful things in Berlin and I already feel myself wanting to stay or go back soon. I know I know! I haven’t even book my flight yet but if you know me well my excitement about beautiful places starts early and last a lifetime.) (Side Note: Italy is still my favorite, as of May 17, 2019) 
  • What should I eat? How should I healthily fuel my body for the many training and the actual marathon itself? (I really want to be more educated nutrition wise. I want to not depend so much on artificial things that are unhealthy and not necessary. I encountered a really nice podcast (https://jayshetty.me/dr-daniel-amen/) that talks about our brain! It really made me think of everything that I do and what I feed my body. Yes! Listen to that Podcast! It’s pretty cool. So after listening to that podcast, I’ve been very mindful about taking care of my brain, myself! One of the things it talks about is only doing things that is good for your brain and that includes eating healthy brain boosting foods! So yeah that’s one of the things I’ve been working on.)
  • So with that in mind, Should I stop drinking alcohol again this time around like I did for my Chicago Training?  Ha! I still have 2 bottles of wine that are super unopened! lol Maybe they will be the last ones I’ll drink. IDK. Alcohol is not good for your brain and I believe not drinking helped me with my training last year because I was able to keep my body super hydrated and on the weekends where I did drink some alcohol I ended up being lethargic for a whole week, making training a bit harder. So Yeah. I think I’m leaning towards not drinking again for this training. lol 

Anyways, these are just some of my thoughts before I start my Marathon Training next week. It’s going to be amazing and exciting and also very nerve wracking! Please wish me luck! I’m going to need plenty of positive vibes! 

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~ Yours Truly Yours, 

Piawia!  

 

 

Some Notes: 

How to be more consistent with yourself….

March 11, 2019: Today I felt refreshed, oh what a wonderful feeling.

I haven’t been myself lately and it completely took me off guard. I was super euphoric at some point and then bam I was kind of sad.

I want to study mental health more. I want to find out different ways to manage these kind of setbacks.

One of the things I keep hearing from my S.O., people I follow on IG, on YouTube and from people I admire and look up to is the word CONSISTENCY.

Oh you want to start a blog? a vlog? A business? You want to run faster and longer? The answer is consistency.

Being consistent just means showing up, doing what you said you’re going to do even on times you don’t feel like doing it. It’s fighting the curse of excuses and consistently winning over them.

In the beginning of this year, I set out to write something everyday, as much as I can. In the month of January, I was able to fulfill this goal. I wrote every night and I was able to post blogs and share them with my friends and my family. But then it got real. It got to the point where the thoughts I was writing were thoughts I did not feel comfortable enough to share, so I stopped. I was getting the gizz of it all. People were starting to follow me and at some point my page was visited more than 100 times. Why did I stop? I was so courageous and brave, I bought my domain and made my page official but then I stopped? Again, why did I stop? In the month of February, I barely wrote. I posted 2 entries on my page and didn’t share it with friends and family like I did on my other posts.

What stopped me? And what stops a lot of people from fulfilling their goals, their dreams and ultimately living the life they desire?

FEAR! For this question, Fear is the answer. A lot of the excuses that we make up are created to justify our fears. Fear of failing, fear of being ridiculed or not taken seriously, fear of judgment and many other forms of fear. Yes, fear comes in many forms and many times those fears create excuses that stop people from being consistent and firm with their plans and their ideas that ultimately prevents their consistency, leaving them stuck and afraid to move forward.

I set out to be braver this year round and my fear still got to me even with superb support system, being it my family, friends and most especially my S.O. I’ve never felt so supported and yet I still let fear hinder my consistency and most specially my growth.

Fear is truly one of the greatest enemy of consistency.

So how do you fight your fears to become more consistent with your words and your goals?

I have some ideas! I am willing to share them. They have been working for me for the past several weeks and I hope these ideas and concepts will help you be more consistent with achieving your goals:

  1. Knowing that fear is inevitable. With this in mind, I set myself up to success when I accept that fear will be present. I wonder and ponder on what might I be fearing to make up the excuses? My S.O. tells me, “don’t say you know when you really don’t.” You really have to dig deep sometimes. One of the things that helped me thru figuring out what I’m fearing is writing. I write the question, “why am I afraid of ________?” & then answer it. There are times where I would end up writing, “I don’t really fear this” at the end of my writing that leads me to realizing that the fear I have is not true and continue on to do what I set myself out to do.
  2. Lessening the pressure you put on yourself. I created a challenge to run 2 miles a day from February 11th to February 28th. I was fearful I would fail but one of the things that kept me going was reminding myself to not put so much pressure on myself. When I set up my run for the day, I quietly remind myself that “there’s no pressure & to do what I can.” Keeping that in mind put so much ease on my runs making my runs more enjoyable. I decided to share this journey on social media that ultimately led to Friends joining me on the challenge and they asked me what the rules were and I said, “No rules, No pressure.” I’ve been running for 32 days, as of March 14, 2019, way pass the time frame I had originally set out to do. I feel good and I don’t feel drained. My friends are super grateful and are happy they started the challenge too. If I had let fear set in and decided to not share my challenge, I probably wouldn’t have enjoyed it much and my friends wouldn’t have joined me. I set aside my fear of being ridiculed and my fear of failure. Setting them aside gave me the opportunity to share the joy of accomplishments with my friends and inspire people to be more active too. Not having the pressure I put on myself made myself more accountable and motivated.
  3. Be more organized. Try your best to be more organized, with your thoughts, your plans and whatever else is in your life. One night, I decided to create an online calendar, as my S.O. suggested {I talk to him a lot}. At first, I was stubborn and thought “No way!” but as soon as I started that calendar, a whole lot of thoughts and worries went out the window. I guess you carry these things on your mind too, the plans, the events, the commitments and many more. As I released these things to put on my calendar, my mind felt at ease, I don’t have to messed up things & I don’t have to miss any events. I can confidently plan, confidently think of other things, confidently focus on other things knowing that I am organized with my days. I also created tasked that I have been checking off each day that makes me feel accomplished vs it just being another day. Organizing can come in many forms too. The key idea of organizing is to have a clear path where your thoughts are not scattered and ultimately alleviate some of your fears of messing up or missing things, events or commitments.
  4. Trust yourself more. I remind myself this all the time. Part of my anxiety battles were brought about because of my self mistrust. For a while, I didn’t trust myself (at all). I’ve come a long way and realizing that Loving Yourself is Trusting Yourself changed my life {for not only the better but for the best}. Even if you fail, even if you make a mistake, even if people are against it, you have to trust that you did the best you could with whatever resources were presented and were available to you. We are all human, we are wired to fail & wired to overcome them too but when we let our fears fight our battles we really don’t get too far. Being brave and fearless can only happen if you give yourself the trust you deserve! Trust that your talented, Trust that you have something important and meaningful to say. Trust that you can inspire. Trust that you are a wonderful human being. Trust that you can overcome all your fears and Trust that you can be consistent with your plans. Just trust and believe in yourself.
  5. “Replace can’t with maybe.” by Alexi Pappas. There’s no other way to word this. I hear and read a lot about the idea that what you say and what you believe to be is actually what happens and what becomes of you. So every time I say things like “I’m not fast”, “I’m not a writer”, or “I can’t do this”, I replace them with more positive thoughts (when I catch it). I am more aware of the thoughts and words I say about myself. I remind myself of words like “not yet”, inspired by Charlie Rocket, to remind myself that there’s always opportunities for growth and even though it feels and seem unattainable, if you ignore those fears, there’s always a chance: a chance to grow, a chance to be faster, a chance to be better, a chance to be who you want yourself to be. So be inspired, follow people who started from where you think you are and witness them face their fears and fulfill the things you dream of to remind yourself that there is always a chance to “replace can’t with maybe.
  6. Another one that I [try to] do and would like to share is to celebrate every accomplishments. It doesn’t matter how small they are, those accomplishments are meant to be celebrated and be proud of. Small things could lead to big things. The little more that you do the closer you get to your goals, the BIG Things. I feel that by celebrating every accomplishments makes being consistent more enjoyable and less pressured. You finished a book, celebrate! You read 3 pages of a book, celebrate! Be grateful for yourself, for trying and for facing your fears! Celebrate yourself for getting up every morning and be grateful for being able to and being given the opportunity just to do something, anything. Celebrate the idea that you are capable and that you have all the opportunities in the world to do what you love you just have to face your fears!

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2019 The Players Donna 5k

March 2, 2019

2019 The Players Donna 5K.

Ah! This is one of my favorite races here in Jax,FL. It’s just a different atmosphere for me. Maybe because The Players has a special place in my heart since it’s one of my mom’s favorite places to be. She just gets super happy going there lol so I like the place.

When I first participated in this race in 2016, (I think it was 2016), the beginning days of my running adventures, I fell in love with the race. I haven’t done it since then (until this year, of course) but I really did love the race. The only thing that was  missing in 2016 was the race medal but even without the medal I would have still done this race this year because it has been a while and every year prior to this year I meant to sign up. This year was meant to be because I got to do it with both my sisters! I am happy that there is a medal this year too. I think the races after the 2016 race had medals, not sure, I wasn’t there, lol.

So anyways, this year’s race was moved to March versus May, which I am thankful for. I don’t mind running in the summer but having the nice weather to enjoy the race is a super PLUS! The course is so peaceful, to me, even though there are so many participants in the race. I am happy that the weather held up with the rain  until later on the day. It was cloudy and a bit chilly, yes, perfect running weather! I wore a tank top and some long pants and it was completely comfortable for me. So kudos to Jax Weather that day, I appreciate you, always!

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My sister said she was cold, while I was just wearing a tank top. lol

The parking lot for the event, was different from the last time I was at TPC, I should have looked at the instructions but I was being stubborn and said to myself, “I KNOW WHERE TO GO, I don’t need to look at the directions.” lol Well, good thing we were like an hour and half early coz I didn’t know where to go. Haha. So first lesson from this experience is to read the event’s instructions! Actually, I just read an article about the 2019 Tokyo Marathon today about how many people were mad that there was a cut off on the 10K mark and one guy was saying how it wasn’t on the fine prints but guess what buddy, it was! So yeah, super important to read the instructions especially in big events like that.

As we walked by the booths and all the free things lining up for us to grab and take! (I’m just trying to remember each moment, super moment by moment.) Each step leading up to the starting line was exciting, for me. I guess for anyone that don’t know me I get super excited a lot, so bear with me, let me tell you how and why it made me excited! First stop, free donuts, Mini Bar donuts, we didn’t grab any of these free things yet because Duh, we’re about to run. There’s some free coffee, free sunglasses, hand sanitizer, free hotdog sandwiches and some free drinks. It’s exciting that these are the things we got lining up for us after the race. (We did grab each one of them, maybe even two of each for some, after the race.) Those are just some of the perks of participating in these kind of events, so enjoy them when you can!

We were a bit early, my fault, I always think races are meant to be super early so I suggested leaving at 6:30 to be there by 7:00 AM. We had plenty of time to take photos and explore the surrounding areas of the starting line which was nice and very enjoyable.

As the runners line up, walkers on the grass and runners by the starting line, our initial thoughts were, “hmm doesn’t seem like there’s a lot of people here today.” But mistaken we were, when the guy told us “GO” we saw the lines of runners right in front of us! There were so many and the spaces where we can run was very limited. It was super crowded and everyone was pretty much shoulder to shoulder in the beginning of the race. To me, this was expected, so it didn’t disappoint and made me giddy and made the adrenaline rush thru me as I watched this massive group of people tackle the golf course.

The whole race, for me, was perfect and very very enjoyable. I will definitely do it again. So, if this blog makes you want to go to try out the race next year! I hope to see you there! ‘Til Next Time!

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Donna 5K Finisher, est 3.2.20219. <3

As always, thank you so much for reading my thoughts! To Da Loo!

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia

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Forgive, Forget & Love.

January 13, 2019

Today, I realized that I want to write about so many things. As I am starting to type I couldn’t think of putting all my thoughts into one passage. This weekend blessed me with a God Daughter, a 13.1 Mile Finish, a Bullseye, a Spotless Clean Car {for my Dad} & a moment with God I haven’t had in a while, all of which made me grateful for life itself!

 

In this blog, I want to write about my Dad. I’ve been meaning to write about this because this is so close to my heart. MY DAD HAD A STROKE. For the very first time in my life my actual fear happened. I always worried about my parents getting sick and worry about what I would do &  what would happen & then it happens. I was overwhelmed with worry & confusion.

With this incident, I learned a lot about myself and what it means to have a family. You see, not many people know this about me, I was losing faith in mine. The day before my Dad had the stroke, I was angry. Angry at the world for not having my back. I preached and I preached about believing in the Universe but yet I was angry with myself for not trusting that my family had my back. My anger and grudge towards my family caused me to distant myself from them for a while. Of course, they did not know this, it’s not their fault. It was something inside me, I know that my family was there deep inside but the surface part of me was so broken I couldn’t see it myself.  

When the stroke happened to my Dad all of my anger and resentments went away. None of those stupid things mattered. I am just happy he is here with us today. I feel like my family and I are much stronger now than ever.

When that happened so many doors opened up for me. My heart was healed and my mind was clearer: none of those things are more important than loving my family no matter what.

When that happened I realized how short life truly is. I realized how much could change in a day, in an hour, in a minute, in seconds.

When that happened I realized to be grateful for what I have, for what is, for what was and for what is there to come.

When that happened I realized how important it is to learn to love others unconditionally by learning to love myself unconditionally. A different view in life came to me telling me the right way to love someone {I have my Mom to thank for that}.

When that happened I was faced with the reality that I have been selfish.

When that happened I was face with the reality that no one is perfect and that everyone is just doing the best that they could.

When that happened I realized how much my family means the world to me.

When that happened I realized that I was so broken and inflicting all my wounds to my family.

There are many many more things I learned in just that one day. That one moment that changed my life. That one moment that made me want to cherish my time with my parents, to cherish moments of joy and laughter with my family. That one moment that made me realized that I had to heal for others. That one moment that changed my life is the moment I thought I could lose my FATHER. (He is ok, by the way)

“It takes us losing something, someone, ourselves or time to truly appreciate what we once took for granted. I don’t want loss to be the eye opening moment anymore. Why are we so blind to good things?” – Kyle Fasel

Learn to heal yourself instead of inflicting your pain onto others. Learn to heal yourself so that you may cherish the most important people in your life the right way. Learn to heal yourself so that you won’t have any regrets. Learn to heal yourself so that you may help others heal themselves. Learn to heal yourself because you are the only one that could.

My love for my family is an epitome of trust, acceptance (for what is) & forgiveness. Without them my world will never be the same.

 

FORGIVING OUR PARENTS, OUR FRIENDS, OURSELVES

“The holiest of all spots on earth is where an ancient hatred has become a present love.” – A Return to Love, Marianne Williamson.

As always, Thank you for taking a moment to read my thoughts.

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia.

Thankful For Him <3

February 4, 2019

How am I feeling today? I feel happy.

That’s it. That’s how today is, feeling happy (& tired actually lol I’ve been up for a while).

So today Karl and I made it official. We are together. We are going to see where this relationship will take us. We will take it day by day. I am so happy.

This week has been so wonderful to me. His visit here in Jax has brought so much joy into my life that I’ve never felt before (all I meant is it’s a different kind of joy, not that I never felt joy).

Reasons being? The whole time Karl was here I was myself………….. There was no doubt in my mind that I am comfortable being around him and that is such a wonderful feeling. We’ve talked about things I never even talked about to anyone. I wasn’t afraid to tell him things people used to call me crazy, desperate for……………….. HE just let me be. He let me be myself freely and that is as in my previous passages, is the most wonderful thing to gift someone.

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Watching The Sunrise 1.29.2019

I want to remember each moment of this day… or the day leading up to this because it was just pass 12am or so when he asked me if we could make it official………….. That took me by surprise really…………………

It’s so sad sometimes to think that all these nice things that he’s doing for me was unexpected but it shouldn’t be unexpected, that is how things are supposed to be.

I was an hour late in our meet up plan because I was thinking he was going to be late or that he was stuck in his conference and was unable to let me know he was on his way……… You see, this is such a regular occurrence for me that I just grew accustomed to it (sadly)…. I’ve dated guys who made me wait 12 hours, I dated guys who nonchalantly tells me “oh sorry, I didn’t realized you were waiting.” I dated guys who just do their thing without regards to the time I spent waiting when I could have done something else…………… No total regards that my time is being wasted waiting for a text to tell me what’s going on…………………………. I learned to be chill in this moments of waiting…………………. And now I meet this guy who is punctual, who says what he means… He told me he would leave Miami by 12 and should be in Orlando by 3…. And silly silly me for thinking he’s going to text me when he leaves and let me know if he’s done with the conference……….. 2pm comes along no text…I’m still so Chill, “Aww he’s probably having a good time in the conference, but I’m ok here i’m spending time with D & D, maybe he doesn’t want to bother me either.” This mindset is kind of making me sad………….. Haha I am numb from people not respecting my time that that’s the kind of mindset I have while waiting on someone………… Karl actually didn’t realized that I was waiting for a text that he was coming because in his mind, I should have known he was on his way……………. Yes I know Him and I need to work on our communication but to be honest, there was nothing wrong with what he did. It was me………. I was so used to people taking my time for granted that that’s what I expected from him……………………………. It wasn’t until Destinie asked me if I was sure… that I should just text him and ask… so I did….. His response “Yes ETA 3PM” like we talked about………………… I was an hour away and was still at the restaurant…I’m just so touched and amused that this guy actually respected my time………….. He didn’t even go to the conference anymore coz he wouldn’t make it on time to meet me at 3pm………………………. Who does that? WHO FREAKIN DOES THAT? NO ONE EVER CARED TO MEET ME ON TIME IF THERE WAS SOMETHING ELSE THEY ARE DOING!!! NO ONE………………. That kind of person exist? That kind of person who thinks meeting me was important..……… HE put seeing me first before anything else……………………… & I was so used to people making me wait that I ended up making him wait………………………….. The whole 1 hour drive I had I was thinking of ways to apologize, my excuses… but I couldn’t come up with a good one. I couldn’t think of anything because he didn’t deserve that………………………….. I said sorry and he said “it’s okay, are you ready?” I set my things in our room and he hugs me. He hugs me so tightly as if all that mattered was that I was there, nothing else mattered………. There was no drama, no guilt tripping, no why what happened……….. He was just happy I was there………

This person exist? All I can think about was how can I repay him for all his kindness… all I can do is to appreciate him for who he is. To give thanks to all that he does……… to appreciate him…..

It makes me feel so sad writing this. I can’t believe that he’s so sweet and nice. That the kind of guy I used to dream about is here existing right before my eyes. We shared so many moments together in just those little times that we had, can you imagine having a lifetime of days like that? I want to believe that that kind of Love can exist for me for a lifetime…………. All I need to do is be grateful for each moments we have.. That’s it. Just need to be super grateful.

So as our afternoon continues, we go to see Orlando eye. I hug him as we walked…….. He offered his arms and I obliged whilst still hugging him. Haha I just couldn’t get enough about how freaking grateful I was!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT while in line to go to the Orlando Eye Ferris Wheel was “I LIKE THIS GUY so much” on repeat!

Well, as always, thank you so much for reading my thoughts. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Love always.

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia <3

 

February 4, 2019 <3

Best Damn Race – Jax – 2019

How was this race for me?

It was challenging… I haven’t been running much and I feel like I am taking running a little bit for granted. I haven’t been training and yet I challenged myself into running half marathons without training just because in my mind, I CAN. It can be both a good thing and a bad thing depending on what side of my head you are on.

It’s a good thing, because I know what my body is capable of and a good thing because I am always able to finish any race, no matter what distance, I sign up for. Good for me!

& Yet, I feel, as though, I disrespected the race because I know there are people who took their time to train and get ready for these kind of races. Please forgive me. I admire you and all your hard work and I promise I will train and do better on my next races. So BDR, is the last Half Marathon I signed up for, for now, at least for the beginning of this year. No worries, I have a lot more other races lined up for the year but I just wanted to take it easy and reboot myself back into training and getting my running and strength training going.

Best Damn Race did not disappoint. I enjoyed every single moment of it. I was super excited when I got my running packet, with my Bib, my shirt & a pair of SOCKS! It was a bit of a surprise for me to be able to grab a pair of socks in there (HAHA moment). Yes the little things in these races can be very unique and uplifting.

On the day of the race, January 12, 2019:

I woke up at 4:30 A.M. (just thought I’d put that out there because that made me so proud of myself.)

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Books I Skimmed Through Before The Race.
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 An Episode of FRIENDS that I Watched While Getting Ready.

When I got to the Landing, where it started, I got a sense of excitement from the people around me. Running events always have that type of vibes anyways. Everyone is so friendly, commenting on my roll of tissue paper, “I should have brought one, I need that.” Of course, I offered. Just a background on that, I have been listening to Coach B on the Nike App and in one of his training sessions, he talked about practicing gratitude for everything during race day; the people that helped organized it, the volunteers, everyone and everything! One of the things he does to show gratitude is by bringing a roll of toilet paper so that there will always be some just in case the race runs out of toilet paper, which happens. So yeah, I brought a roll of toilet paper and left it in the bathroom. It felt amazing to take part on that pass the toilet roll paper goodness. (See the small things always does make a difference.)

Before the race started, as we line up, my friends and I realized that “Whoa, there’s not that many people here today.” My first thought was “OH MY! I’m going to be last.” It’s such a pressure building moment, when it truly doesn’t matter what place you’ll be in the race because all the matters is that you have fun and that the race makes you feel like your time and efforts were all worthwhile. So, I calmed my silly self down and remembered to just enjoy the race!

As the race started, I can feel the adrenaline rushing thru me. I ran with the Jax Galloway crew, which consist of amazing people, by the way. We do the run and walk method that I love. We started the method after the 1 mile mark. Although, I did stop to enjoy the Sunrise! It was rising right over the Hart Bridge, the Green Monster, which is my favorite bridge and it truly made me feel so blessed to be able to take part on this race. I stuck with the group I was with until Mile 9 or so, after that, I couldn’t keep up anymore and fell a bit behind. It’s ok, the race is full of supportive and motivated individuals that kept me motivated and determined.

This is my first time doing a BDR race and I must say that the route was one of my faves. You might hear different things from different people but I think it was one of the best I participated in (but don’t listen to me, I like most of the racing routes I participate in, anyways). As I approached the part of the route that I normally run on a regular basis, I felt at home, “This is 1 mile away from my destination.” I do somewhat have that last part of the route memorized by feel because it was my normal route when I run on my lunch breaks or in the mornings. It felt good and it felt like I could finish strong……. (I walked a lot, lol) As I go through the elevated part of the race and the down inclines, it felt nice and amazing but I still walked a little bit after that and ran a little bit more when I was closer to the finish line.

& Just like in any other races, seeing that finish line, is an amazing feeling. I grabbed my medal and grabbed my water and see my friends who were waiting for me. “Wait you didn’t take a picture here yet.”, one of my friends remembered. Ha! & that is why I love participating in races, it is full of dedicated, motivated, loving, wonderful people who are always there to encourage you to keep going! The end.

As always, thank you for reading my thoughts. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Love always.

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia <3

A Letter From Me To Younger Me <3

January 20, 2019

The power of self-love, got me craving for some me time!

I wanted to write something to younger me. I want to write her a letter, for all those lost & troubled times and for moments that younger me never felt loved. So, here it is:

Dearest Younger Me,

(A Letter Inspired by Alexi Pappas)

From the beginning of time, you have been given this journey to grow and learn. Hold on there! You are doing amazing and I am super proud of you. In this journey, you will learn all of the things I list below, yes, it seems far from true but one day you will learn to trust me too.

1. When given a chance, always choose to see the Sunrise…

Sunrise (& Sunsets) are always beautiful and every single one of them will remind you how truly blessed you are & starting over is not such a bad thing.

2. Never doubt yourself, better yet, never let others put doubts in your head…

In life, negativity is a given thing, power thru them anyways. You are far more powerful than the negativity that will come your way.

3. Believe in who you are…

Learn to love yourself for exactly who you are. Remember that the world is a better place because you are in it! <3

4. Love is always the answer..

When fear comes along, remember to always choose the path of love and it will lead you to the right place.

5. Forgiveness is the key to a loving heart, always choose it & choose it fast…. 

Forgiveness is hard but also the most important thing to learn! Let go of what if & what’s not. Let the joy of accepting what is come into your life.

6. You’ll feel like you’ll need to prove yourself to people, Don’t.

Always choose to be brave, say what you feel, say what you mean and let your inner guide lead you… It will never let you go astray……

7. Always be in a place where self-love can exist for you…

Avoid places, people and situations that doesn’t feel like love… if you ever find yourself in these places, you can always leave and that is completely ok! Always choose what is truly good for you!

8. The YOU now is just as deserving as the better you you are waiting for…..

No need to wait to feel worthy, you are always worthy, remember that always!

9. Focus on what is best for you, and the rest will follow…………..

Your main goal in this life is to be happy, so be that, do only things that make you happy and don’t let anyone distract you from achieving true happiness……. & If you do get distracted it’s ok, let it go, forgive yourself & choose again. 

~Always Choose Love Over Fear!~

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia!

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Est. 1.19.2019 “Training is like building a sandcastle. Each grain of sand is important, even if you can’t see them all”
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Sunset ~ Est. 1.19.2019
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Sunrise ~ Est. 1.20.2019
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Sunrise ~ Est. 1.20.2019
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Sunrise ~ Est. 1.19.2019

 

Aftermath of my First Marathon

October 7, 2018

I did it, (I did something incredible) I finished one of the World Major Marathons, the Bank of America Chicago Marathon 2018. 

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My fave mantra: “Stay” – just enjoying each run moment by moment.

Honest to God, becoming a MARATHONER was one of the best feeling of my life, seeing that finish line was just pure amazing! I couldn’t believe I was able to reach my goal. I knew I was made for long distance running, even before, I just couldn’t fathom the fact of running for a long period of time. CRAZY SH*TS. 

My mindset about running (and life in general) changed so much. I’ve come a long way mentally and I am super proud of who I became. I became this person who believes in herself and someone who works really hard to love herself. {That’s a good thing, and you should be proud of yourself for striving for the best version of yourself} 

This marathon journey taught me so much about my strengths and weaknesses, what I love, things I want to be surrounded with, being alone & accepting other people’s helping hand without feeling like a failure. I learned to give thanks for everything that is around me and everything that is given to me, provided for me, I became the most Thankful and Grateful person I never thought I could be and that’s one of the things I love about myself! Ha. You’re probably like, who’s this girl who’s just talking about how much she loves herself? That’s totally fine! I just want to inspire people to start loving themselves too. To start accepting themselves for who, where and what they (we) are! 

The marathon was just a stepping stone for me. The morning of the race I woke up feeling prepared, excited, anxious and also very grateful for the journey. I learned that just being able to run is something to be grateful for already despite of results or anything else that could happen. The fact that I was given an opportunity to be where I was, was already something to be (SUPER) grateful for. My mind was really calm (well, until I realized I might be late, then I started panicking a little bit) but all together, there was no doubt in my mind that I could finish. It was already set in stone for me that I will finish. I was more worried about not making it on time, but I made it with 45 minutes to spare 🙂 How incredible is that? My time {for my first marathon} is 5:45:54 which is an incredible feeling. Before I took training seriously, I was running 15-16 minutes per mile {only because I lost touch with running for a while}. In those weeks, I was running my slowest, I even thought of quitting, but quitting was not an option. When I decided not to quit, it was more because I didn’t want to have to think about the marathon for another LONG YEAR! I’ve put some things on HOLD to be able to do this and I didn’t really want to do it again. After a while though, the reason for this run journey shifted to because I BELIEVE I CAN! {If you want to know how I did that just message me or I’ll write another blog about that shift, IDK, I’m playing this by ear and just writing away my thoughts about the marathon and what I had become after it} 

The shift in my mindset helped me through training and eliminated a whole lot of doubts (instead of doubting the whole journey, I only doubted a little bit, ha! It was a shift from 90% of doubt to 10%).  Now, after this Marathon journey, I believe in myself more. I know I can accomplish a lot of things I set my mind to. It taught me to focus on myself, to love myself and to believe in myself. It taught me that there are no set backs that can ever prevent you from reaching a GOAL you truly believe in. 

This journey changed my views in life and I want to be able to share that with people because it’s an amazing feeling. I hope that this inspires you and your friends, your family and anyone who ever doubted themselves. I was a self doubter, a self downer, someone who waited for people to believe in herself. Someone who cared about why people doubted her and someone who didn’t think she could accomplish big things and yet here I am 26.2 MILES STRONGER than any of those doubts. Don’t ever ever lose hope and faith in yourself because no one else can believe in yourself as strong as YOU CAN BELIEVE in yourself. 

So, that is the aftermath of my marathon journey, this running journey has taught me so much about my strength and how I reached a goal I never thought I could. KEEP BELIEVING and as the first time Marathoner OLYMPIAN, Alexi Pappas said: “Replace Can’t with Maybe” and you will reach goals you never thought you could! Always Be Brave, BRAVEY! 🙂 

Thank you for taking your time in reading this fantastic & amazing journey of mine. 

Follow my SELF LOVE Journey on IG @piawiaventures. 🙂

PEACE, LOVE & GRATITUDE. 

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Thankful for my legs & feet, my whole body, always.

With LOVE Always, 

Pia, 

the Marathoner

(my running name is MARIA, by the way)

Wearing my medal in the Atlanta Airport
Coz I can. #MedalMonday